Help i feel like im being consumed by the evil spirits!!?

When i was young i use to go to church every sunday, it would always be the same routine hyms, blessings, donations, confessions, and then prayers. One day in curch i felt like somehting was watching me and i felt overcome with a sense of what you could say was spirituallity. when i got home i just wanted to cry and scream and i wanted to lets just say summon something. Afetr a while of felling depressed i went into my brothers room and got out one of his insences called Rush. After using it it made me feel like i had connected to a spirit so i started using it regularily. After a while i realised that it was stupid and gave it up, but recently ive been having urges to take it up again. of course now going into my early 30's i ignored those urges. now i feel like im being followed everywhere by spirits i feel like there talking to me and i can hear there voices in my head...its as if demons are using me as there throughfare to the earth and im worried that soon they will consume me.I now cant stand the thought of oging to church and confessing which is why i ask is there any kind of private act that will free me of this urges.